November 26, 2009

Thursday November 26, 2009

Alto Paraiso, GO

Dear friends and loved ones,

I’d love to share with you a letter Paul wrote to his sister. After reading the last newsletter and watching David Icke’s interview, Paul’s sister commented that some of the information was a bit scary. I liked Paul’s letter so much, the way in which he details how it is we have come by all the information we now have, information that I so dearly want to share with you, so I thought you would also enjoy reading his letter. I would imagine that for some of you, some of these things are too incredible to believe and you may find yourselves in a number of different ways, whether frightened or angry or disbelieving or some other emotional response and I would like to address that if I may. A few years back I forwarded a link to a video called Zeitgeist to everyone in my family, so impressed was I with its content that I believed everyone needed to know what I had just discovered or rather had explained to me in a way never before done. Some of the responses I got to that were anger that part of their worldview could be so discounted and discredited. In the same light, when some of my family saw a movie Michael Moore produced some years back revealing truths that challenged long held views, they felt betrayed and very upset. It is not an easy thing to realize that everything you thought you knew as truth was a lie and that as a human race we have been deceived.

Please read Paul’s letter and then I shall elaborate further:

Patty,
I really thank you for being bold enough to watch the David Icke video. He is very knowledgeable - we have read his books and the things he says are backed up with facts. He includes so many facts that his books are long. Not many people are able to open up to the things he knows. Everyone is conditioned to reject what he has to say. Mindy enclosed an article written in 2000 about how conditioning works and why most people must patently reject what he says.
I got into this stuff really because of Grandma Luttrell.
When I was little - say from 4 to 7 years old (I was the first grandchild for her), she would sit me on her lap and read bible prophesy and then read how it was unfolding in the newspaper. She wanted me to know that I would likely live to see a great ending of times. Now, she was decidedly Christian and her prophesy involved the typical taking up of the righteous and the punishing of the unbelievers. She was an incredibly bright woman - but no chance to get an education. She was deeply into metaphysics and was aware of Edgar Cayse and other modern day prophets. She watched Kathryn Kulman - who was a faith healer. Grandma once watched Kathryn melt a goiter from a woman's neck in a live meeting. I also saw copies of Psychology Today on her coffee table. She was an avid magazine reader.
Mom didn't like Grandma influencing me because she only saw the negative stuff - the hell fire and brimstone. Mom was raised in a rough environment. Although her parents loved her very much, she had a father with a short fuse and a mother who wanted her to be a good girl (which she was unquestionably)
So, in my young years, I became focused upon becoming a preacher and grew an avid interest in metaphysics (the overarching concepts that make the universe work)
After a while, the inconsistencies in the Christian religion caused me to realize that it was doing as much harm to people as it did good. In my teen age years, I set off to find out truth. I figured that if I could find out what was the same about all of the religions - that would be a truth. In my reading and other influences, I discovered Pantheism when I was about 16. It is the doctrine of minds within in a universal mind. In other words, we all have a mind that makes us a person, and are joined together in a collective intellect which I will call human consciousness and that is contained in universal consciousness which contains all that is.
When I came home anxious to tell mom and dad about what I had learned - they became very angry.
I then realized that not everyone wants to know the truth, and that the truth can be very threatening.
Fast forward to the relatively recent.
I needed to get a Ph.D. in psychology, but had no interest in psychology (psychologists professionally label people as having different pathologies and then make a fortune out of either prescribing drugs or talking to them). I don't believe in pathologies, only different paths. So when I discovered that I could do a degree and take only metaphysical topics (death and dying, Eastern psychologies, shamanism, and other courses) I was happy as a pig in merde.
I learned a hell of a lot about what people believed and knowledge that was kept from people to save religions and the level of ignorance that the rulers (illuminati) think they need to maintain control. For example, a lot is known about consciousness after death. But if you talk to someone they will tell you that nobody knows. Not true there are many books written, you just must open your mind and heart to what is out there.
Anyhow, about this time Min and I became Sufis.
They believe that all religions are valid and that the core belief in all religions is truth (does that sound familiar to my original intention earlier in this e-Mail?)
Well, in our Sufi practice we would chant daily and then meditate. Min and I got different things to chant. Min asked for a chant that would give her a spiritual leader or a guru. I asked that my eyes be open to what was going on (to see what my Grandma wanted me to know about).
So we chanted for a year - Min to find a guru and me to see the truth.
Then we moved to Vermont.
At that point we started getting all manner of information about the true nature of the universe. (It wasn't pretty, but I only asked for truth)
We found out about the other beings that occupy this planet and their intentions. No matter where the information would come from - videos, books, personal visions, courses with the enlightened - all the information said the same thing. And our information continues to grow and become more detailed.
Well that put us in a hell of a state. We knew things that nobody else would ever think of believing - and the worst part of it we knew it to be the truth.
We could no longer talk about politics because we knew it was a sham. We couldn't talk about religion, because we know the being who started them and who profits from them. We wanted to help people understand what was happening, but everyone thought we were nuts.
In this process of unfolding we got a chance to use ayahuasca in Brazil. We thought it would open our eyes further (it worked for Mindy and she learned a lot) for me it was disappointing, but I know why and I would love to have the courage to face what it showed me - but I am just a little weenie right now and have to pull myself together and get rid of some of the shit that ayahuasca wants me to expel.
Anyhow, many of the people in Brazil are involved in the same quest as us. They are spiritually inclined. Many people see what we see. Finally, we could talk to people. That is why we are in Brazil - we are not nuts here.
Now, Mindy will not stop until she wakes people up and she uses the newsletter (as I do with my articles) to make people aware of the true reality of what is what.
We do it not to scare people, but to wake them up. If enough people wake up, the horror story stops and people come together and expel the force that is out to cause suffering and death. I think that if I were in danger, I would like to have the lights on so I could see the monster, get out of its way or know about its weapons.
We know who they are, how they think and what they want. We can help people and save many lives.
So, you now know a little glimpse. Granted it is repugnant and you want to close your eyes and no one else will believe you (except Stephen - he is more advanced on a consciousness level and will be able to see more than most). I would love to send him our blog and put him on our mailing list - if you give me his E-mail address I will do that for you.
Anyhow, you are a blessed soul and will do the right thing.
Take your time and let the information sink. Talk to Stephen and share ideas.
Min and I will answer questions - but we will tell you the truth and how you can learn more.
I love you very much and do not want to disrupt your life, but you signed up to live in then end of the era and your young eyes will see the reality you know shift into the most wonderful thing you can imagine. In 6 or 7 years, consciousness on the planet will have shifted and a magnificent reality awaits us all.
Love you,
Paul

There was a time when I felt that I knew much more than I ever wanted to know. I wondered what my responsibility was in having this esoteric knowledge. How could I know these things and not do what I could to warn people what was happening beyond our awareness. It was a question we sat with for a very long time and took into our meditations. After all, if we revealed what we knew, it would either piss people off, upset them, make us look stark raving mad and alienate us, none of which were welcome options. Yet I felt like I was privy to Hitler’s plan and I had a choice between saving as many people as I could from the gas chambers or simply saving my own sorry little ass. How could I keep quiet? Well as you now know, I can’t keep quiet. So I am about waking people up to news that isn’t good. But in the end, both Paul and I believe as do many others that the general state of consciousness will shift on the planet as the few who are already fast at work expanding their worldview will raise the level of consciousness for everyone on the planet. It is like the twelve monkey story. When a certain number of monkeys learn a new skill, all the rest of the monkeys suddenly have the same ability. It works like a morphic field. Read Rupert Sheldrake’s work if you want to know more about this. So we believe that probably by about the year 2016, all the people on the planet will be living cooperatively in peace, with open minds and different values. No one will be satisfied to have more than another while someone goes without. But between now and then, there is a lot of change that must take place and much suffering and loss. It will likely not be a pretty picture as so many people have a lot to lose to come from a survivalist mindset, looking out for themselves and their small circle of family and friends to caring for all of humanity as themselves.

There are deep issues to contemplate in all of this. Dualism separates everything into pairs of opposites. Good verses bad, in verses out, up verses down, for everything an opposite scenario. But not one of them can exist without the other, one creates the other. With this in mind, we have been asking ourselves about the role the Illuminati plays. Are they there as an antagonist to force the development of consciousness on the planet? Is all this evil actually necessary? I sure don’t like the sound of that, but I can’t help wondering if it is all part of the grand design to shift consciousness from where its been programmed to go to where it needs to be for all of us to live together in peace.

I don’t pretend to have any answers, but I sure have lots of questions. Paul happens to be really good at finding information and we both have very open minds, so even though we don’t like what we are learning, our quest for knowledge is insatiable. And we like to ponder……

So dear ones, should you like to discuss, question, have a shoulder to cry on even have a constructive argument (though I really detest arguments) we are here to listen and give whatever feedback we can.

I can’t really say what the future holds. I will likely continue to share with you whatever I happen to be contemplating at the moment.

The Brazilian People

Today I resumed watching a video series about the Brazilian people. One of the activities I like to engage in is listening to Portuguese dialogue while reading the subtitles in English. It helps me with learning the language at the same time I learn about the content of the film. I’ve been hearing about Darcy Ribeiro’s take on the history of Brazil. He describes the three different influences that have created the people who populate the country today, the Indians, Africans and Portuguese. He asserts that when the three cultures mixed they created a people with no identity that would not be acknowledged any longer as being African or Indian or European and that children born into these mixed cultures were therefore nobody. As I sit with this and contemplate what he’s saying, I remember times when I’ve heard this very thing, that the Brazilian people think they are nobody and that when a foreigner comes and treats them as if they are someone, they really respond and blossom. This surprised me when I heard it the first time because it was unfathomable to me to consider that anyone would treat another human being as if they were no one and unworthy of respect or acknowledgement. I can no longer see the difference between one person and another and wouldn’t consider treating someone without respect. But it leads me to wonder about even deeper issues around identity. It seems we cling to our identities and when they come into question we have “identity crises.” Who am I, we ask? I was just asking that question myself not too long ago. But it also seems that in the midst of the unknowing, the ego loosens its grasp and allows us to change and become something we didn’t know ourselves to be prior to the confusion. From nothing, everything becomes possible. From no one, anyone becomes possible? Ribeiro asserts that this is what makes the Brazilian people so creative.

I’ve often marveled at the musical and artistic ability of the Brazilian people and at their capacity for caring and love. I’ve also felt a lack of division among racial and cultural differences as if there was no dividing line between them. I suppose I understand now why it felt this way to me. Some people like to argue this point with me and insist there are class differences determined by the lightness and darkness of people’s skin color. But honestly, I can’t get that. What I feel is an acceptance among everyone and a failure to separate one person from another based on any differences.

Now I don’t necessarily get the same feeling from the Europeans who have settled in this place. Perhaps they do feel separate, in fact twice I have heard someone say that are looking for other Europeans (or Americans) to live in their designed communities, not Brazilians, however they don’t hesitate to hire a Brazilian for security, establishing them in a small house near the gate. Not cool, to me. Nothing will change as long as people continue to hold others as separate from themselves.

Sorry. I’m not happy to sound as if I am delivering moral lectures. I apologize. Just rambling on as thoughts occur to me.

Macacas

Paul just called to me to come and look out the window. He spotted a group of small monkeys outside the window on the vine that grows between our yard and the neighbors. I’ve often thought there should be monkeys in the huge mango tree just on the other side of the fence, but until today we’ve never seen any here in Alto Paraiso. What joy! I do love the monkeys. We went outside with a banana hoping to entice them closer and offer them a bite to eat, but they were busy on their way, using the tree limbs as highways on their way to somewhere else. We stood and watched as they crossed the street through the trees and continued on their way out of sight.

Well my friends, I believe I’ll end this newsletter for today in the hopes you are still enjoying reading it and that I haven’t once again alienated myself from any of you whom I hold so dear. The sky is clouding over again, thinking about more rain, while I myself have thoughts of ice cream……

Until next time, we send our love

November 21, 2009

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Alto Paraiso

Hello dear friends and loved ones.

I’m not sure if I’ve ever mentioned in detail anything about David Icke, a British researcher who once gained fame as a public sports figure before becoming a reporter and being ridiculed because of his outspokenness on issues considered taboo and therefore delegated to the outlandish and outrageous, not to be believed subjects. Later these topics all became relegated to the realms of conspiracy theories. All new wisdom throughout time, whether represented as art or science which has broken new ground was first dismissed as ludicrous and ridiculed, leaving the deliverer of the new information “hung out to dry”, completely discredited. Paul and I think he is a brilliant researcher with a mind which can dissemble and present new information in such a cohesive comprehensive way, even to the uninitiated person with no background of this knowledge. And he comes at it from a perspective we share, that of infinite consciousness in the process of expanding. He brings a message that can alter the future of humanity if enough people listen. And they are. Please be among the people who are listening and considering what he says. It is so well done and he is magnificent in his ability to convey such an important message. Please take the time….

David Icke's interview in Phoenix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pl_IpIvFw0g&feature=related


    I’ve been reconsidering some of what I just wrote while I was away from my computer for a while and I want to add a note or two of clarification. If you are interested in some fascinating reading, read Leonard Schlain’s book, “Art and Physics” for a great historical analysis of how art has always preceded science, a little off the topic but still worth mentioning. More importantly, if you happen to be a person who likes to see documented evidence; theories backed up by names and dates before deciding if the information is credible, do read David Icke’s written works, for example “The Global Conspiracy” or if you prefer to watch video taped interviews, go back through the last few years and watch some of his older and more in depth interviews and presentations to fill in the gaps where the new information you are hearing has no context to fit inside of. His web site is also a great source of information on very relevant topics: www.daividicke.com

    I once saw a bumper sticker that really summed up my attitude and approach to life. It said, “Disturb the comfortable. Comfort the disturbed.” I think I’ve been doing this most of my life and now seems to be no exception. I want to stand and scream, “Wake up! Look around. Think deeply.” …Think about what makes something credible. Who is providing your information? What do they stand to gain from you knowing this thing, whatever it is? Do they stand to make a profit? Will they gain more control in some way? If there is money involved, by all means, question it. If the deliverer has nothing to gain, there’s a real good chance you can trust the information.

    I am here in Brazil for so many reasons which I won’t go into in this letter, but one of them is because I do not want to be there in the US. What’s happened and is happening is too apparent to me now and I find it unconscionable. It’s being used as a prototype to create a society of enslaved consumers. But most people don’t realize this because this culture is all they’ve ever known and most have not stopped to question it, or consider that there is anything that can be done to change it. But it is not the people, for I leave there, so far away from me so many loved ones, children, parents, brother, friends. It’s a big price to pay for freedom and a life I can get behind with total consciousness. It’s so strange, even today, I met more people who are still coming here form Switzerland, Wales and Germany in the last 3 days to two weeks. Each is completely conscious of the unfolding events in the world, behind the scenes. From each of our different cultures and geographic locations, we are thinking about and talking about the same things as we are all open to a reality that is vibrating at a slightly different frequency than the general mass of people on the planet. Mostly these new people who are coming here are quite a bit younger than us. Why are they coming here? Why are we here?

    At the Saturday market this morning, I ran into my young friend. “I really want to come see you,” he said, “and see this thing you made for me.” I had printed up an astrological birth chart for him to help him understand some of the more powerful cosmic forces that are at play with his life right now as he goes through the break up of his marriage at 28 years old. So early this afternoon after the market he came to the door, “I am visiting Brazilian style,” he said, “I brought some new friends I want to meet you. Is that okay? Am I interrupting anything?” Paul and I had been sitting at the table interpreting a book together, both learning Portuguese at the same time learning more about Umbanda.

    “Lovely, please invite them all in,” we said as he and 5 friends came in to join us. Three were from Switzerland, one from Wales and the other a Brasiliera. In a group of 8 people the conversation takes many twists and turns and it’s not possible to be involved in each or enter fully with as much depth as I for one would like, as the topic veers off into tangent and soon becomes another altogether, even though still related. However, as I followed and participated as much as I could, each intrigued and held my interest in a way I’ve never before experienced. I am amazed at how this place continues to be calling to people from around the world, all of whom hold similar worldviews and appear to be as awake to the unseen forces guiding the direction of the planet as we are. We have been discussing this and questioning some of our new acquaintances and friends about how they came by their knowledge of these things which we are completely aware of but so many others in our life remain unaware.

    Later the next day- Sunday November 22, 2009

    It’s difficult to maintain a cohesive train of thought in the course of writing when so many other things come in and replace the activity, pulling my thoughts to other considerations. For instance not only friends dropping by to visit while translating, but stopping to catch up on the latest news from internet sources, hunger calling for a meal, sunshine beckoning for a walk, among other diversions which presently do not come readily to mind. But I started yesterday with a few points I actually wanted to cover in the midst of my more usual flow of consciousness babble. One of which was the variations of interpretations of the term “hippie.” Now for me, the word hippie brings only a positive context, summoning up memories of being a teenager in the sixties, a worldview that encompassed the pursuit and demand for personal freedom and self expression, a desire for love to prevail over other destructive emotions, a fervent cause of ending war….. I could go on, but I think, I hope you get the drift. I have repeatedly heard the term hippie associated with laziness, an inability or lack of desire to work, ineptness in normal functioning, uncleanliness….again, I can go on, but one hopes the point is taken. This distresses me. Why do I bring this up?

    I suppose this place reminds me of hippies. I feel like a hippie again. I dress like a hippie again. Many of the people I meet remind me of hippies. But MY interpretation of “hippie” in a totally positive light, not the others! Paul and I were walking down the street the other day when he asked me what I thought so and so would think of this place. I can’t remember who came to mind in that conversation, but I could easily think of a few others I could replace in that question. He proceeded to answer that they would think this place was filled with a bunch of hippies. That’s when I stopped to consider the question I was just debating. “So if ‘work’ or not working or not wanting to work was a quality that defined one as a hippie,” he asked me, “why is that so bad? What is the big deal about working ‘hard’? Why ‘hard’ as opposed to soft?” Is it that ‘work’ as a concept is in effect the equivalent of difficult as opposed to easy, I wonder? Or is it that we have been so ingrained and inculturated to believe that to be a good citizen, a good person, you should work hard? Maybe, I wonder, ‘hippies’ simply have freed themselves from these indoctrinated notions? Something for you to ponder if you feel so inclined…

This is a good time to introduce you to some further information to explore. Over the last couple days we came across 2 video interviews and an article, which came at the most appropriate time in an email just as we were watching Alex Jones interview Kevin Trudeau. The title of the video on You Tube is: Kevin Trudeau {In-Studio} on Alex Jones TV 1/5:Big Pharma's Secret is Out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZW82CSheUQg&feature=related

Just as a side note, we do not actually admire the man being interviewed or share his approach to life but he knows what he is talking about and delivers some important and relevant information.

When we watch videos over the internet, because the speed is so slow, we generally start downloading and go off on another project, coming back later, so I was checking to see if I had any new mail when my dear friend in Colorado sent me a link to the following article which I can not recommend more highly: Blueprint for a Prison Planet by Nick Sandberg http://www.nick2211.yage.net/chips.htm It is a fantastic read. Take note of the date. This was written, almost 10 years ago and notice how much of what he said would happen has. On the other hand, much of what was planned has not come about maybe because people are waking up and intervening in the plan. His explanations are terrific. Really worth reading!

If you’ve taken the time to watch David Icke’s fantastic interview, you’ll enjoy the last two links as they continue to fill in the gaps of the same areas for consideration. These things have been on our minds over the last couple days as we’ve watched and read them while we’ve been about the business of life in Brazil.

So more about hippies, if I may…. As we sat around the end of our living room on what substitutes here for furniture, two mattresses on the floor, exchanging stories, I couldn’t help being reminded of our previous conversation about hippies. What constitutes this way of being? Is it relegated to an age, as in an era, or to the youth that we were (and some of us who never “grew up,”) continue to be? One often does hear the term “old hippie” used as well and never in a positive, complementary way. There are those who might argue this point. Likely it is more a state of being, a worldview. Certainly that wouldn’t be limited to youth although I can see that certain times in the course of history have influenced this worldview. Another thought to wrap your mind around if you like, though why you would, I can’t imagine. I suppose it is only something I’ve been thinking about, being in this place in this time….

Perhaps you are bored with my line of questioning so I’ll return to regale you with tales and adventures of life in Brazil, such as they are. Friday night we were invited to attend a dance “spectacular” at the polo (Open University.) It was part of a festival celebrating Afro- Brazilian culture and there were several events, performances and demonstrations around town during the week. As we sat informally among the audience that nearly filled the small auditorium we watched the introduction of a conga drummer who came solo to the stage and sat himself in the corner while he then began to play a hauntingly beautiful tune which he occasionally accompanied by song. Fantastic music! Shortly after the music began, a beautiful Afro-Brazilian man entered the stage dressed in costume, which had him bare chested, draped in Indian style tunic type below the knee pants, wrapped in a corded rope with flesh colored ball shaped gourds dangling from various places on his belt around his body. It created a really cool effect as he moved in the dance, changing rhythm unexpectedly but delightfully with the music. It was quite short and only one act, but the quality of the performance was better than Broadway and once again we marveled that only in Brazil could one go to the local school auditorium and be entertained by highly professional and talented artists.

Before the performance we stopped for a bite to eat at the restaurant which I must describe as it is unique in its character. Very un Brazilian, the feeling more one of California in Brazil, by day the place serves a vegetarian buffet covering two long tables. Off to one side a shop showcasing local artists and artisans including highlighted indigenous art, all of which is quite remarkably beautiful! To the other side one ascends a set of stone steps outside but inside under a huge tent to a raised terrace populated with hand carved wooden tables and chairs, under tall trees which poke their heads through the tent. Outside but inside! Two nights a week the place becomes a pizzeria and serves pizza from a ceramic wood fired oven built into the side of the terrace. I noticed Friday it is also a hot spot making it an internet cafĂ© as well as a performance space since one side is home to a large stage which is well lit by an overhead beam of spotlights. In the evening there is also a large raised fire pit creating a lovely camp/bon fire for even more of a relaxing ambiance. We drank vanilla Absolute, which though hardly seems worthy of reporting on, I do because of the way drinks are served in Brazil, or perhaps here in Alto Paraiso. On all of the 3 occasions we’ve stopped out to have a drink, they have brought the bottle to the table and poured drinks 2 to 3 times the size of any I’ve ever been served elsewhere. One place actually left the bottle at the table for self service! I suppose they charged accordingly but you know, how much to charge seems to be the least of their concerns, the 1st being to make their customers happy. Imagine that!

The next morning was the Saturday marketplace, an event I’ve already reported on, followed by internet research interspersed with the visit from our friends, old and new. What I haven’t mentioned is the fact that we have been staying close to home by day for the last several days because Paul has been undergoing a special treatment to bring the pre-cancer skin cells to the surface, eradicating them naturally with the use of this special cream. It is a 15 day process prescribed by the same dermatologist who removed the small spot from his nose that appeared shortly after arriving in Brazil. He’d postponed beginning the process until we retrieved the luggage we’d left behind on our initial trip, so that he could get to his shaving things and remove his beard. Now 12 days into the ordeal, his face is unpleasantly and painfully raw having him seek the darker cooler solitude of the house until the end, when we both anticipate the return of his clear beautiful skin without any further concerns of skin cancer. Too bad the weather has been perfect for waterfalls as the rains have been coming only at night and the sun is showing its full glory. But we were home later that day, instead of accompanying our friends to the waterfall when I heard Nico calling from the gate.

Here in this part of the world, everyone has dogs inside the gate to keep away unwanted intruders who might want to steal your shit. Because of this when a visitor comes to call they must stand outside your gate and yell in to see if you are there, so they can pass safely through the dogs. I see it (and hear it) everywhere. For the longest time, I simply ignored the calls outside the window, assuming it was a neighbor getting a visitor. But lately we’ve had as many visitors as the neighbors, if you include the mailman who’s come twice and the woman who comes by on her bicycle to sell home made bread. Sunday we had such a visit. Frederico knows the big black dogs and Rocket are harmless so he doesn’t have to bother with calling in from the gate. One’s old and blind in one eye, though he does have a ferocious bark and an even better howl and the other, though enormous, is only a three month old baby who trips over his own feet constantly! But Nico is not familiar with the territory and had to begin his initial approach as the others, calling from outside the gate.

Hard to believe that we (for those of you who know us well) received so many visitors in one day, but none the less we did. We spent several hours talking to Nico during the course of which we wanted to know how it was he came by the same information that we know, information that is called esoteric because it is hidden from view from the general public and seemingly only known by those few who actively search for it. Was he getting his info from the same sources, primarily from the internet, was he reading the same books? If any of you have watched the interviews or read the article I referred to earlier in this letter, you’ll have some point of reference for what I’m referring to. Perhaps you already know that much of the truth and stuff that is kept secret is hidden in plain view, disguised as science fiction or absurd comedy in movies, talked about in song lyrics or stand up comedy, written as fiction in progressive novels. Here are a few examples: Woody Allen’s “Sleeper” George Orwell’s “1984,” Aldous Huxley’s “Brave New World”…. How about the movie, “Network” or a more recent one “Idiocracy” I could go on with more…

Nico described himself as a seeker from an early age. Living in Alto Paraiso for the last ten years, he’s participated in Ayahuasca rituals, an indigenous source of shamanic information, to name just a couple things but not as we have necessarily gained our information, through the internet. It’s interesting to explore how and why this place seems to be attracting seekers as if, as one person speculated, the crystal under the earth’s surface is acting like a pulsing heart, bringing people home to the core of the planet, appealing to them to follow their hearts. Like many of our other new friends and acquaintances who are actually native to Brazil, there came a point in the conversation where he noticed the guitar in the corner and asked if he could play, as Frederico had earlier. Three friends joined Frederico in song as he played earlier in the day. Now we were flabbergasted when the sounds of jazz guitar filled the room as I sat wishing I had a good tape recorder to capture it for listening again later. And then the beautiful sound of his voice in song accompanied it. Most often when a person picks up a guitar to play, standard chord rotations and popular songs are usually what you’d hear, not finger picking jazz licks or personally composed complicated compositions. I hated to interrupt him as the night grew dark and we began to think about dinner.

Yesterday we ran into two friends who wanted us to know that the Lotus Space just up the street from us, where a couple friends and acquaintances lived and where yoga classes are held, was opening a restaurant. Not legally, but just for friends and special acquaintances. This was a cool concept, we thought and something we’d never expect to see anywhere but here where to earn a few reais people show up at the Saturday market with home made pizza or bread to display for sale. So why not dinner in an open room of a really cool house? Not so unlike the Thai restaurant across from Walgreens in Brattleboro. After two invitations, we knew where we were planning to dine that night and we invited Nico to join us.

Before I tell you more about the rest of the evening though, I’d like to describe our friend in a little more detail as he is one of the most special people we’ve ever met. The child of an indigenous Indian father and a mother who he refers to as a gypsy who is a medium that can incorporate spirits, he grew up with 5 sisters in the big city. Most of his family is employed in the performing arts and media, radio television, magazines…. His father renounced his Indian heritage and culture and never shared that with his children, perhaps we might guess from shame? Why? We recently watched a documentary about the people of Brazil in which they depicted the original Indian settlers as cannibals, completely disregarding any mention of their spiritual connection to the divine or to the earth or any other positive aspects. Our friend is a beautiful person both spiritually and physically, with a vigor and youthfulness reminiscent of a young man in his twenties though he is nearly forty. He has the compassion of an ascended master and a deep connection to the natural wonders of the earth and a knowledge that transcends the indoctrinated norms. Leaving behind a highly paid career as a camera man in Sao Paulo, to live close to the land, he is as I mentioned a highly skilled musician who has worked with the Ayahuascaros playing music for rituals and is a practicing Buddhist, it would seem.

So after 8 pm we walked up the street to the Lotus Space, where we could see through the open gate that the walls to one of the small houses had been opened to reveal a softly lit room full of tables. A group of people were standing inside and as we approached we recognized the yoga teacher. I think I mentioned that the lotus Space has two large dome shaped buildings used to teach yoga classes as well as hosting drumming and other events as well as being living space to a few people. Nina, the yoga teacher introduced us to the other people she had brought who were visitors from France. They had just come from a Satsom around the corner where they had spent a few hours listening to the music of rare instruments inside a building shaped like a teardrop. I’ve yet to attend myself, but look forward to the experience. These folks were visiting town on the way to Abadiania where they will spend two weeks with John of God before returning to France. This was the very thing that 1st brought us to Alto Paraiso!

Dinner was still being prepared so we walked outside to a large camp fire circle and continued our conversation for a while until we heard the call to commence. As is common to this place, a ceremonial ritual initiated the first dinner being served in the newly created restaurant as we all joined hands in a circle and Nina said words of honor and blessing. I’d have loved to understand exactly what she said, but knowing the general gist sufficed. Not content to sit apart from one another, a process began to move all the tables to form one long one and people took their places while the hosts served vegetarian sushi and yakisoba along with fresh squeezed juice to each of us. Afterwards everyone made their way to the campfire and I suppose for them the night was yet young, but we returned home to relax and continue the process of healing Paul’s face, which hurt too much to be near the fire.

It’s an interesting metaphor to contemplate, this situation of bringing potential skin cancer cells to the surface of his face. So many different metaphors spring to mind, for example, “saving face,” killing off the old so the new can be reborn, dealing with the external side you show to the world, to cleanse and purify and renew who the world sees you as, the skin being the largest organ and the only thing that separates the internal from the external. There’s no mistake this process is taking place here and now.

So Saturday night we returned home while the others stayed on. When I awoke the next morning Paul asked if I’d heard the drumming, which had begun near 3 am and continued for hours, while likely someone held a ritual nearby, but I was fast and sound asleep and unaware.

    I would like to wrap up this newsletter today by thanking you for reading, for joining us in our adventure and considering the things I write about. This time I mentioned several sources for you to see to broaden your perspectives by reading and listening to information you may not have been acquainted with. I think this is so important, whether you agree or believe what you hear is not important, just that you take the time to find out for yourselves what is taking place around us all. There is another man who is worth listening to. He is an Australian who hosts a radio talk show called Surviving the Matrix, on the internet and his videos can be found on You Tube. Although we were not able to download all parts successfully we are very familiar with his work, which is all quite good and we appreciate the perspective he takes on most matters. So when you are interested, take some time to find Max Igan’s “The Calling.”

November 16, 2009

Monday November 16, 2009

Alto Paraiso

Dearest friends and loved ones

This has been a fortuitous week of many changes to our perspective and the opening of infinite possibilities. Our chance encounter with the friend whom we met last February was a blessing from our protecting angels and guides. I know this sounds so “magenta pixie” but I also know there are forces unseen around us who guide our way and lead us toward opportunities which are there for our benefit and growth. I also know there are no mistakes and no chance encounters but beautiful poetic messages directing our progress on our individual paths. So this week we were invited and began a relationship with the Open University center where she works. In exchange for our help and guidance to the students who are learning to teach English, we are engaging in conversations to help us learn Portuguese. It is very similar to the arrangement we had with our friends in Pirenopolis, however we are engaging with university students and teachers rather than high school students and teachers.

This is an exceptionally good place for us to be learning to speak this new language because here at the 14th parallel there are many people who share our worldview and the topics of conversation are those with which we appreciate in engaging. How lucky for us that many can speak some English which gives us an entry level for communication as well. We feel so fortunate to have found a community with so many who are awake to a similar reality and even with a small vocabulary of mutually understandable language which has us know we are on the same path.

At the school, or rather I should clarify, the polo which is a central meeting place, computer lab, library and auditorium for a distance learning program, we have been working with the group of local natives to the surrounding regions. While the teachers are still Brasilieiras, they come from as far as Rio de Janeiro and Sao Paulo. It is so heartwarming to feel this loving welcome and acceptance with which we found all over Brazil before coming here. It is missing in the Europeans and some of the Brasilieros who migrate here from other places. I don’t like to separate and compare but it is a noticeable difference we feel. Like being embraced in the arms of a loving Auntie, compared with a handshake of a new acquaintance. But again I’d like to add that here when you meet someone new, they may shake your hand, but they will also then pull you into an embrace and kiss at least one cheek and wish you welcome and say what a pleasure it is to meet you. And they are sincere. And I do feel welcome!

Our dear friend Enrico who helped us to find the house we are renting and took us under his wing for the 1st week we were here has been suffering overly much in the course of a separation from his wife and has decided to move away to a piece of land he has outside of town. With the difficulties he has been experiencing we knew we needed to give him space and time to be without the worry of us. It had, in a small unspoken way, us feeling a little alone and out on a limb for a week or more until we reconnected with our other friend, Eneida who was the other of the two we had briefly met on our first visit here last February. It was perfect really, as our needs after arriving and initial settling shifted to the more mundane and physical and in a sense more mature (adult) nature. Sounds horrible but Eneida who has more years behind her and is more of a contemporary can relate in certain matters more to our situation than Enrico who has more youth and in some ways different concerns. So it was a good and timely transition from one helping angel to another.

So the week opened us to more comfort with the community; a glance into another segment of the population, one closer to us in age though not necessarily in values or even wisdom, yet necessary to our unfolding ease with the place. I think we began at last to feel a sense of coming home and feeling like this is indeed the place we belong and wish to be. There is so much more here than meets the eye. I knew this from the start but it was withholding its mystery. And now the mystery reveals a little more, yet there is still so much more to come.

Another factor which was creating an uncomfortable tension and uncertainty for us was our relationship to our landlady. She is an intriguing woman. I would say she is somewhere in the neighborhood of our ages if not possibly more and has been here for 27 years. Because she speaks no English at all nor understands it, it has been up to my meager ability to communicate in Portuguese. At first we felt like she could barely tolerate us and when we needed to ask about some detail with the house, like how to light the oven for example, and we felt a hesitation to interact. We were feeling a little like we wanted to find a different house because we sit here in this one in the middle of her “garden.” It is a fantastically beautiful setting with 4 houses, each surrounded by beautiful landscape filled with fruit trees, enclosed in a fenced yard and protected by 2 really cool Labrador retrievers, an 8 year old gentle soul with a ferocious bark and a 3 month old puppy who trips over his own feet, in training to be another protector, (but only with loud obnoxious barking.) However this week a new warmth and friendliness emerged. Maybe because I was determined or maybe because it simply took time for her to warm up and get to know that we were good people who could be trusted. In any case it has helped us to feel much more at home and happy to be here.

So the week unfolded in this lovely way, a new ease and comfort with the place and with the people with more new people coming into our life.

Friday night at the end of the evening at school, our friend invited us to meet her at the market in the morning to introduce us to new foods and “have breakfast” together. I was so pleased she extended the invitation because Paul until now had been reluctant to go with me to the Saturday market. You see the Saturday market is the main social gathering event for the town to come together. There are many others actually, but this one brings people from various groups, some who live outside of town all together to shop for the weeks locally grown food and crafts and reconnect and visit. Those of you who know Paul know that this type of gathering where one is required to “chat” is his least favorite activity. But our new Brazilian friends are working on him to overcome this! It is so cool. “Bati papo” is the slang phrase, literally translated means to hit or bat at the loose skin on the neck of a chicken, but means something more like “shooting the breeze” or to chat! This she wanted to teach us on our first night together learning Portuguese because she knew, since Paul had confessed to this shortcoming which he has decided to overcome if he is to live with Brasilieros! A long winded way of prefacing our visit on Saturday morning to the outdoor market…

It starts quite early and it was an effort to wake early, do our meditation practice and forego breakfast at home which is one of our favorite activities, lingering over a 2nd cup of tea on the veranda….. But we did. As we were driving up our road, just three houses past our own Paul stopped the car when he spotted a newborn puppy on the side of the road. As I rounded the front of the car I saw not one but 4 new puppies huddled together on top of an empty backpack. Ohhhh they were so cute! Two yellow labs and 2 mixed colored but mostly black ones. Maybe they were 4 weeks old. So Paul went home and since we didn’t have a box, got Rocket’s traveling crate and returned to where I waited with the puppies. Of course we both wanted to keep them or at least one of them but since we are still unsettled in our own place we thought the time not exactly right to adopt more members into our family. So it was perfect we were on our way to the market filled with people not only shopping but standing around shooting the breeze. Eneida was our first stop at the table where she sells fresh produce from the farm she and her husband have outside of town. In no time 3 of the puppies had been adopted out to various people, while it presented a wonderful opportunity for Paul and me to meet and speak with so many more people than we would have if we hadn’t been standing around with adorable puppies who needed new homes and families. The little one I was holding who was nestling itself into my body, feeling very safe and secure stayed with me for a long time and I thought it likely we would come home with a new baby for Rocket (aka Uncle Ernie – the molester of puppies, the younger the better) But it wasn’t meant to be as a young woman found me and asked to have the puppy. “Say good-bye,” my friend said, “Your last puppy has found a new home.”

As much as we would have loved to have a new baby to bring home, we were incredibly lucky to find 4 people to adopt those puppies! You see here in Brazil, people do not neuter their pets. There are always puppies abandoned on the side of the road, usually left in places where it is known the people are loving and kind and will not let them starve. Our friends and neighbors were amazed that we had had been successful in our mission to adopt those puppies. Little do they know just how lucky we are!

I regret to say Rocket got into a little trouble that morning at the market, as we did not have our full attention on him while we were attending to the puppies. Apparently someone had come there with a hen, perhaps to sell? I vaguely remember seeing a crate with hens inside when I arrived. This one was walking around outside the crate when Rocket decided to chase it around and Paul went to its rescue, banishing Rocket to the car while we finished our business. I had several conversations as did Paul with various people on different topics, two of which were items we had wanted to discuss.

We had been wanting for more than a week to find Tica to see if she would be interested in babysitting for Rocket while we traveled. This is something we’ve hoped to find since arriving in Brazil, someone who could love and watch over him so that we could take trips to discover more of Brazil without him. Because we hadn’t seen much of Enrico for the last two weeks, we couldn’t discover how to find Tica until the morning of the market. After a very receptive conversation (she speaks mostly Spanish and a little Portuguese, but no English) we made plans for a trial visit later in the afternoon to see how she and her baby and Rocket would all get along. I also mentioned to her as well as to a few other people that we were looking for another house to rent and to begin looking at land for sale to build a house.

Amazingly since we don’t speak any of the same languages, she told me about a friend who has some land he wants to sell. She described a place with waterfalls and pools and monkeys 5 feet tall in a beautiful place about 40 minutes from town. She managed to convey to me that when she saw him she would introduce us. Another conversation had me speaking with an Italian woman who wanted me to know that she had a friend who owned some land and was creating an Eco Village there and could introduce us so that we could visit his land to see if it might be of interest. She took our phone number and said she would call later that day.

I may not have told you about us and our cell phone, or perhaps I have? As yet, we had not had a successful conversation. No, that’s not true. We did have one or two with our friend from Brasilia the day we tried to meet for lunch before our phone credits ran out. And I did manage to find a store to buy more and plead with the shopkeeper for help in phoning in to activate the credits. I can not do it in Portuguese- only face to face- not on the phone. And I am phone shy. This is something most people don’t know about me. I have deep seated psychological issues with calling people on the phone. You see, deep inside I fear rejection- it is a deeply ingrained curse of my personality type which I still struggle to overcome. And I am super sensitive, so I can feel a sense of rejection when I call someone who may at that time be preoccupied with another activity and not really in the mood to have a conversation but has none the less answered the phone. It really sucks but it explains why I so rarely call people. I do on the other hand, love when people call me! Anyway, I digress. I had trepidation that we would in fact receive a phone call or that the phone would work or I would know how to operate it, so I was completely surprised later that day when the phone rang to set up this meeting.

But hours before that took place we walked Rocket to our friend Tica’s house for a trial visit. As it turned out she lives just around the corner on a lane we had taken walks down. She and a friend were sitting out back while her baby played close by. We had briefly met her friend once before but not had an opportunity to talk with him much. We were delighted to get to know that he knew and understood much of what has preoccupied our thoughts over the last few years. As we got to know a little more about him, he told us he had been a camera man working in Sao Paulo before moving to Alto Paraiso. He had come over to meet us and tell us about his land. He described the place to us in more detail, explaining how it comprised 40 alqueres which is the equivalent of about 400 acres, forming a valley under a series of several mountain tops shaped in a curve. At the base of the valley is a river where the springs are born which flow through the river forming several waterfalls, the bottom of three of these forming clear deep pools for swimming. He told us of all the wildlife living on this land, including large cats which I believe are leopards as well as 5 foot tall monkeys, anteaters and capybaras among others left unnamed for the moment. He described how half the land was documented and registered and how he wished to sell that half or a portion of it. He wished to show us maps which were left at home but set a time to meet us the following day to take us to visit.

We left then so Rocket could have a chance to visit with Tica and her baby and get comfortable being without us. My God, he and Paul are so attached, it is worse than leaving a new baby with a sitter for the 1st time!

We came home and were swinging in the hammock, talking about the morning when the phone rang with our new Italian acquaintance on the other end arranging a meeting to show us her friends land (and proposed Eco Village) later in the afternoon. Just then I looked up and saw Rocket at the gate looking through from the outside in. I’d forgotten we had left him at our friend’s house and thought to myself how strange he had managed to get out of the fence and wanted to be let back in. Then I remembered where we’d left him and realized he had found his way home. As we were closing up the house to walk him back over, knowing our friend was probably concerned when he ran off, she arrived to check on his whereabouts. Insisting on taking him back to continue getting acquainted, we agreed to meet again in an hour to retrieve him in time for her to take the baby to a birthday party.

When we returned Marcos was there waiting with maps and more detailed conversation continued leaving us thrilled and excited to visit his land the following morning. At this point Paul and I had already begun to envision ourselves in this wild and exotic place, living into a possible future and all we could create in that place… a place where friends and loved ones could come to detox from the realities of life in the US, visit waterfalls, swing in a hammock watching the birds fly past….. and so much more. We do love creating possibility!

At five o’clock, right on time (surprise! But these are Italians not Brasilieros) the car arrived to pick us up. We drove to a place very close to town, only a few kilometers away, just next to the waterfall we had visited just days before. I shall have to stop here for a moment to tell you about this place….

Just minutes from town is one of the local attractions (this place we live is an eco tourist location just outside the National Park and part of protected natural lands called Chapada.) At the end of the road we live on there are signs pointing the way and we have taken walks in the direction but not gone all the way there. This week we finally devoted a day to visit. There was little sign of rain and Paul had at last felt relaxed enough to spend a day visiting a waterfall. This one, like many others, is located inside privately owned farms, but is open to the public with a fee. Delightfully residents of town are charged only half the price of visiting tourists. As we pulled up to the gate we encountered a sign which looked very much like a sign advising private property and a notice not to enter, but I was not to be deterred and insisted on going further to check while Paul was ready to turn the car around to leave. Such has often been his way – he’ll go most of the way and then turn back. But not this time! So much we miss out on because we cannot always read the signs or understand the language. In any case we were given the go ahead to enter until they saw we had Rocket with us. There are no rules here other than what time you can come and when you must leave except that domestic animals are not permitted. But I was able to persuade the gate keeper that Rocket was very good and that we would keep him on a leash and not allow him to swim in the pools and he let us enter. The day before we had driven to a different waterfall and been turned back because of Rocket. In that place the gate keeper was nice enough to offer his fenced yard for Rocket to stay in while we visited the waterfall but Paul didn’t wish to leave Rocket behind.

So armed with this knowledge and the acquiescence to pass under these conditions we set out on the trail to the waterfalls. Not exactly sure what to expect, again because our initial conversations being all in Portuguese we understood only a part of what we had been told, we were surprised to find a suspended wooden boardwalk through the dense vegetation climbing an ascent for several hundred kilometers. At several places along the path an opening would descend down stairways leading to small and sometimes larger waterfalls ending at pools where one could swim. Most of these had platforms and decks adjacent to the water where you could lie or sit and some had benches. We passed a couple before we chose one to stop at called Grandmother something. It was a good sized fall, not as high as some of the others, a little gentler, falling into a pool surrounded on the other sides by stone walled cliffs oozing with mosses and ferns and other exotic plants. We were there alone and I marveled at the beauty of this public place with so many different falls and pools that each visiting group could have their own private waterfall to enjoy. A place with no one else around where you could change into bathing trunks or even simply be nude with no one to see or care. We stayed quite a while swimming and relaxing on the deck watching Rocket meander about the edge of the water with no one to care that he was off the leash or dipping his feet into the water’s edge. New birds flew by we hadn’t seen before. It was clouding over and beginning to sprinkle when we gathered our things to head out, but the beauty of the place was so intriguing we continued to the end of the ascent visiting each of the other falls, just to see them, finding one more beautiful and enchanting than the next. We knew this was a place we would love to return to and spend more time with, and to make it even more wonderful so many different falls there to enjoy and so close to home!

I can’t remember what day it was that we visited Locquinos, but on this Friday evening I am about to tell you about, we returned to the very same place only about 50 kilometers from it’s entrance to a piece of land owned by a man from Italy. His dream is to invite 5 people or families to buy a piece of his land with some commonly shared facilities. His house currently under construction, he has already brought in electricity and water. The land is beautifully situated among the hilltop on several plateaus, each about 1 hectare in size, curved into the hill to face the surrounding valley and hillside in a different direction, creating very private little parcels of land, all with incredible views. His dream of creating an eco village encompasses creating also a shared common space for commercial use- mostly space for seeing clients, holding workshops or yoga classes. He envisions a space with an international community of likeminded people and tells us of a couple coming from France who teach yoga. I think he liked the idea that we were American to add another nationality to his International community. Here in Brazil we have heard the term condominium used in a different way than what we were familiar with and this village uses this concept to distribute the shared expense of maintaining a small house located near the gate for a person whose job is to provide security. In this case this person also tends the grounds and the fruit and vegetable gardens.

As much as we liked these two beautiful Italian friends and this land and the location which is so beautiful and so conveniently close to town, we are not sure this is the environment we are choosing for our future. More and more we wish to move away from the necessity for security. From protecting what is ours from others. From having more than others such that we need to keep it to and for ourselves. It is a problem we wish to turn away from not towards and we seek a place where a fence and a gate are not necessary for our protection. We know this exists and we know, though at this time we had not yet seen the other place which I have already begun to describe, that it is possible to find. But for now we are not closing any doors nor shutting out any possibilities…

Sunday morning at 8 o’clock we drove over to Tica’s house to meet our new friend and visit his land. The drive was beautiful if not a bit long but took us through valleys we’d not yet seen. It led through an original village of settlers who were the escaped slaves that make up what is called the trail of tears, a passage winding its way through parts of this state. It also passed through huge farms many of which are doing environmental damage to the regions eco system. Our friend told us about the impact of huge parcels of land growing Eucalyptus trees which require far too much water to sustain them, robbing the surrounding environment and changing the balance of nature.

Before arriving at the entrance to his land, we stopped at a place called Janelas e Portals, meaning windows and doors which was a formation in the land creating a huge window and doorway to the valleys beyond where we stood. It was quite spectacular. The entrance to his land lies across and just up the road. We drove our little compact Chevy over much of the road in, concerned at the access which would have been much kinder to a 4 wheel drive vehicle much higher off the ground. But we did eventually need to leave the car parked in the shade of a tree about 2 kilometers from the edge of the land because the access was incomplete for a car like ours. We walked down the valley to the river at the bottom across from the encircling mountains that cradled the curve of the valley. Like most rivers here in the Chapada, the trees and vegetation around and on either side of the water is much more dense and mature than the landscape of low grasses and small bushes and trees that cover most of the terrain above the rivers. The shade of the trees was very welcome as the midmorning sun already grew very hot. Once at the water’s edge the path was too dense and so we made our way downstream through the river itself, walking in sandals across the rocks, through mostly shallow water but often thigh high in places. There were many times Rocket was too short to pass and needed to be carried as we made our way. Along the way the river formed pools at the base of the descending waters which came directly from its source at the top of the mountain. Several hundred kilometers of winding our way along the edge of the river and often through the river we ended at the bottom of a large waterfall which created a very deep pool and was surrounded by a huge rock cliff.

There was little conversation up to this point and we followed thinking we were walking towards our friends land, but when he climbed midway up the rock cliffs, removing his sandals and shirt to dive in, we realized we’d been taken to this place for a swim and to enjoy its magnificence for a while before retracing our path through the river to view the land across from where we’d begun. This part of the river was downstream from the part that traversed his land.

Rocket was so funny here, trying to find a way into where we were by climbing the bank to the top of the rock before being convinced to return to the bottom. But he wasn’t satisfied to wait around the corner and barked until Paul picked him up and brought him into the water, where it was well over his head and he could not enter on his own. The swim was refreshingly cold but immensely enjoyable.

It’s so odd using the river bed as a trail, but there are rivers here where the growth is too dense along the sides or the rocks too slippery to make your way safely, but the return trip was much easier for me as I was getting the hang of walking in my sandals without them slipping off to the sides of my feet with each step. I missed the shade of the forest along the river when we crossed to the other side to walk through the valley of our friends land. The terrain climbed into open valleys and then descended, crossing the river three times to get to the end of the valley where he wishes to retain the undocumented half comprising more than 200 acres. At this far end, we visited the place where his temporary camp is set up, waiting to build himself a small house. I was so tired from hours of walking; I sat on a rock in the part of the forest that will be the bathroom, sitting not far from a porcelain toilet bowl resting in the middle of nature waiting for a room to be built around it. My friend invited me to come to his sala (living room) and have a rest there, so I followed him to the edge of a steep cliff where he casually sat and looked over the drop into the forest and river below. Not so crazy about high places, I slowly edged a little back from the edge and I can’t say it was all that relaxing a rest stop, worrying that Paul or I might slip accidentally over the precipice. Actually relieved and happy to move along from that place we continued to explore more of this beautiful place leaving the shade of the forest once again to walk through the open fields of tall grasses back to the car.

As we walked along our friend told us of a time when he and his friends had encountered inter-dimensional beings which he referred to as Dracos and described in ways we had been exposed to and familiar with from our research. He named 4 or 5 different kinds of IDB’s and we recognized these names and descriptions, though never ourselves having had any personal encounters. We could imagine though, seeing them in this place.

All over Brazil we’ve been seeing huge termite mounds and this place was no exception with some over four feet tall, having sometimes 3 or 4 bulging eyeball shaped openings in various places. What we didn’t know was that these light up at night in the dark, filled with fireflies and glow like a nightlight! I could see he had positioned a few of his rooms near these and had carved out an incredibly large one to create an oven and a range top for cooking.

Though we did not see any large monkeys or leopards, we could imagine them in various places after nightfall, but didn’t feel at all threatened or unsafe in this magnificent place.

The walk back was frightfully hot as we were well past mid afternoon and the sun was directly overhead when we were out of the forests, so the cool water of the river was very welcome as we re-crossed it three times on our way back to the final hill climbing the far side of the valley back to the car. I had failed to remember the descent being as steep as the ascent now was in the heat of the late afternoon after walking for 6 hours. I could barely move one foot in front of the other and I’m afraid my lack of strength and energy had me wondering that this place was a good fit for me at this juncture in my life with as many years as I bring with me. Our friend who comes partially from Indian descendents and carries probably 25 years less, continued to move as quickly and agilely as a big cat making the comparison a bit disconcerting, but he was so loving and patient and encouraged me to take my time and rest when I needed to. The car was a welcome site and the 45 minute ride back to town a good chance to rest up.

With no rest in between, Monday morning’s activities came far too soon. At 9 o’clock Vistara came to collect us. Saturday, after the market we had engaged in conversation and we had asked her, being a real estate agent, if she knew of any houses for rent outside the city or land for sale where we could build. As the answer was affirmative, she lost no time in arranging a few things to show us. We drove just a few kilometers to the valley which opens from the end of our street, only to the left today rather than the right side where we’d gone Friday night near to Locquinos. At the top of the mountain we stopped the car to look down into the valley below at a hectare of land for sale priced quite high because of its close proximity to town. We continued on, following the road around the hill, through an area with a small community of houses interspersed among mature forest along very rough road which our car had trouble maneuvering. Again the realization that we had bought the wrong kind of car was apparent and reminded us that we will soon need to trade it in on something with 4 wheel drive. We came to a padlocked gate at the far end of the road, but still only 5 minutes from town and entered an area nestled into the hillside.

We walked another hectare of land located on the side of a gently sloping hill facing a panorama of other hills near and far and the valley far off in the distance. There were several great locations on it for building, all with magnificent views, and we discussed the merits of each. Paul prefers to be at the highest point with a vista out and over great distances, while I prefer to be closer to the bottom or midway up so that my view goes up and out. It’s a point of discussion that we need to mediate to find the place which makes us both happy. As much as we both liked this place it was another condo situation with shared costs to maintain security and the upkeep on road repairs which we are both shying away from. But after walking the land, we continued walking through the rest of the grounds to see the common areas and visited two other houses which might be rental possibilities and also gave us some incredible ideas for building designs. And then we visited the common space which was a huge octagonal shaped building, open in the center with a fire pit. Around the circumference was a kitchen, dining area and large open areas for multi uses including one sitting area with an opening through the wall to a view of the valley. This space we were told was for the use of all the residents for large gatherings and guests, but seemed to have as its residents a young couple with a small child. As we spoke with the woman, the child and her father were outside playing and practicing capoeira, a beautiful dance-like style of martial arts, which is fantastic to watch. You might Google this to learn more about it. Paul and I both adored this building and are considering building our own house in this style. But again the high cost of a small piece of land because it is so close to the city and the condo style security is a deterrent for us.

It’s strange looking at land to build. I’ve never done this before. It takes a lot more imagination than shopping for a house. There are so many more considerations and possibilities and it’s hard to know just where to put your attention. We both feel that it’s best not to rush into buying anything and wish to find the perfect place to rent for a while, yet our hearts keep pushing us to look. So we continue to explore possibilities for the future.

At the end of the morning we made one last stop to see a house owned by an American woman. It was a beautiful design, if not a little too small and set in a magnificent garden, lush with flowers and fruit trees, but not what we are looking for. Returning home, we made a plan to look at more land further from town the next day, priced at an eighth of these close in places.

It was good to have a short rest before heading over to the college for our language discussion where we met with our friend and two students. One told us of how much she wishes to learn English but is so afraid to make mistakes that she hesitates to speak. When I explained how forgiving people are with me at my misuse of correct grammar and tense, and their pleasure at my small accomplishment with the little I am learning, she had a different story to tell me. She is a taxi driver, and when she picks up English speaking people, she keeps a dictionary in her car to help with words she doesn’t know. She told us of how disgusted with her and frustrated at her attempts and lack of ability to converse and understand. When she speaks, she speaks with a perfect accent and has a sincere desire to communicate. I felt so sorry for the lack of warmth and understanding she receives in her attempts to learn a new language compared with my experience. I often feel a need to apologize for my fellow Americans and their behavior when traveling to other countries. This just represents another example of how warm and friendly my experience of the Brazilian people is.

Tuesday morning Vistara drove us to see more land. She brought along a friend who spoke English making the day a little easier as there was much about this place she wanted us to understand. We drove out in a different direction this morning back towards Brasilia through good roads and large farms. The landscape was quite different and none the less beautiful. After only about 25 to 30 minutes we were driving through a farm, passing through a series of gates. On Sunday we did this as well. There are public roads that sometimes pass through privately owned farms. As one changes to another, there are gates, most likely to keep in the livestock, but also to separate the boundaries between farms. I wondered as we drove if we were going to a piece of land just through the back end of this farm we’d passed through, as at this point the information was not forthcoming, we mostly drove in silence. But we drove for a very long time after passing through the farm gate and continued around a hill into a very lush, mature valley with a river running through it. Almost all the valleys here have rivers at the bottom and always along the sides of the rivers there are more trees and plants and more dense vegetation. This is quite notable here because there is a criminal element (my opinion) of farmers who set fire to the natural landscape to create pasture for grazing cattle, all in the name of profit, which is destroying the natural vegetation and ruining the ecosystem, driving away the wildlife who lived there before the fire took away their habitat. It also changes the weather patterns as the trees bought more water and circulated the moisture. My friend Marcos explained it to me so well the other day, but now I can not recall his explanation. In any case, much of the cerrado, this high dessert, was like rain forest before it was set fire to, to clear the land. When we asked what the area was called we learned it was called Paradise Farm and was owned by one of only 4 families who settled the whole region and owned most of the land. Only 10 years before now, most of the area was still in farmland, without even paved roads in the city which was still then a small village with dirt roads.

At last Vistara began an explanation of where she was taking us. There were 18 Alqueres for sale through this long narrow valley. At the very end, nestled into the two mountains which came together to create a closing point, in a sense, Vistara herself owned 4 alqueres which she had bought in partnership with a friend and wished to sell half of. This was of course the most beautiful place of all. Had she not wished to keep the very end for herself, we would likely have offered to buy it on the spot. At this place where the two sides of the valley joined together forming a sort of cove where two rivers met (and of course created some waterfalls) one felt like they had found paradise at the end of the road- with no one or nothing beyond for the eye to see. I don’t exactly know how one goes about describing nature. What can you say other than how magnificently beautiful it is which becomes redundant after a while. I write this as much to help me remember and keep separate one place from another so that I might remember when looking back.

We saw far too much in too short a time. We had too many interactions with people and places over the short period of 4 days and were on overload and exhaustion. We needed time to reflect and check in with ourselves on how we felt. Sunday was a killer and we hadn’t yet completely recovered. Paul had slipped on the rocks a couple times walking through the river and wrenched his back, though he hadn’t said barely a word of complaint. But he desperately needed rest and solitude. I too was in need of reflection time. So when Vistara asked if we’d like to walk about 30 minutes down the river to go to the waterfall, we declined, but she and her friend were not leaving without at least a short stop to bathe in the river’s small pool near where we crossed from one side of the valley to the other. I was pleased too as it was very hot in the sun and the cool water looked welcoming and refreshing. I hadn’t thought to wear a bathing suit this day, not expecting that we would be in water, but our friends welcomed us to feel free to go in without clothing and I for one accepted. The small trickle of bubbling water where one river joined the other made a great back massage.

I don’t wish to bore you with further details of visiting land as I know I don’t really have the skills to describe what I saw or even what I felt other than to say, this last place was somehow different for both of us. It felt right and we continue to have it in our thoughts now two days later and think about the possibilities of being there. It is a place with no electricity and no phone service, and one would have to assume no internet, so it is a lot to consider… We like its easy access to town and although not as close as 5 minutes away, the 30 minute drive would not be a hardship. So we will continue to let the idea simmer. And like so many others here consider having both a place in town and one out.

So this wraps up my account of the week’s activities. It has been exciting, exhausting and full of possibility and we are happy. It’s hard to believe as we are in the Southern hemisphere in springtime that Thanksgiving is next week with fall about to become winter in our former home. One feels so far removes from all that existed before this time. But it is good and we include in our plans for possibilities of the future a place to welcome our friends and loved ones to join us- whether for a short visit or forever- whatever that now means……

With love, until next time….

November 9, 2009

Monday November 9, 2009

Alto Paraiso

I’ve been reflecting on what’s transpired in the last 9 days since November began. We have been about getting some stuff done, but also we’ve spent some time reflecting upon who we are, what we’re doing here and what kind of future we envision for ourselves.

It seems that just before we left to drive back to Brasilia, Cidade Ecletica and Pirenopolis on Wednesday to retrieve our suitcases, visit friends, extend our tourist visas and exchange currencies, I was contemplating deeper issues and concerns. We’ve both resumed our meditation practices after quite a bit of time away and I found myself asking the question “who am I?” Perhaps Paul’s quandary with similar questions provoked this line of inquiry for myself. Here we are in another life, on what seems like another planet and we no longer recognize ourselves or have any sense of identity with who we are.

Since February 17th, the day after returning to Vermont from our 1st visit to Brazil, we have been about “moving to Brazil.” Well we arrived in mid August, but it feels like our tip toes have just touched ground and we are waiting for the rest of the soles of our feet to feel solid ground. We feel almost at home, but not really. For Paul this has been a major adjustment and there is somewhat of a culture shock, freeze frame, out of sorts, uncomfortable bubble surrounding him. I don’t think he identified it as such but it’s funny that our friend Leide identified it immediately when he saw us. He described a feeling of being paralized when he landed in the States where everything was so different. There he was with his wife and 2 children all depending on him and he felt powerless to make his way in such unfamiliar and sometimes unfriendly surroundings. There is a fear that can set in and make you unwilling or unable to engage in life. This feeling was emerging around Paul and as he let his thoughts explore this he came up with an idea which completely intrigued me.

Laying awake one evening unable to sleep I asked Paul a question to which he replied, “ wait a few minutes I’m thinking through some archetypes.” A couple days later the topic came up again and I asked him to explain what he meant. You see, I knew a little about archetypes but not very much and not enough to know how one used them. Perhaps this is not even the way Jung intended them to be used but I thought quite clever and creative. Paul explained to me that there were certain features of his character that he would like to develop more strength with, for instance he wished that he had a stronger physical body with more energy to get through life, so he asked himself who he could think of that would embody that characteristic so he could envision being like that person in that way. Another example was finding a person he could model who had great confidence or the ability to promote himself. You see, the game being to model certain figures, whether they were public personalities or someone he once knew who happened to be especially great in a certain way. When I understood this, I found it a fantastic exercise to undertake and explore for myself too. Perhaps this led me to lay awake another night reflecting on who I am.

From the time I can remember I wanted to be a writer. It was the answer to the question what do you want to be when you grow up. I’m not sure what I envisioned that to mean and perhaps that too has shifted over time but I imagine being a writer meant being published and maybe paid for it though I doubt my mind ever really considered the financial aspects. Maybe it just meant I would write and someone else would read what I wrote. There was a time in my life when I actually wrote a novel, even though it’s true it was autobiographical. That was an exercise in self healing, if there ever was one. I even went on and started another novel and got 2/3rds of the way through before giving up on the project because I realized it had no point and no real story line, it simply meandered wherever I felt like taking it- much like this does. So for much of my life, though I wrote, I couldn’t say I was a writer, because why? Because I wasn’t published or being paid for writing. I have revised my criteria. Suppose this very thing is an example of everything in life. What if we wander through life wishing we were something that we already are but haven’t noticed? Are we what we always dreamed yet living unaware?

And this brings me to a question for you, my dear readers: who are you? Are you my loved ones or part of my extended family of brothers and sisters on this planet? Who, if anyone, is reading this? What are your thoughts, questions or comments? I would so much love to hear from you! Please do feel welcome to email me at my personal address:mindy.urken@gmail or respond to the group through the blog. I don’t really know how blogs work, but I think this format makes it possible to post your comments if you like. I think some of you know that my son Charlie who lives in Colorado is responsible for the creative and technical part of posting this blog and I think is doing a fantastic job with it.

Last weekend was a holiday in Brazil. Actually it was 2 or 3 different holidays. Friday was Childrens Day, Saturday was Halloween, though I’m not sure they actually celebrate that one except I thought I saw a group of kids in costume, and Monday was the Day of the Dead. In Ecletica they were celebrating the anniversary of the original founding members’ arrival and pilgrimage to the central plateau. Because of all the holidays we put all our business on hold and waited out the long weekend to make our trip back to the city to take care of business. It could be the same all over Latin America, though my experience is only with Brazil, but every other day is a holiday here! Don’t even get your hopes up to do anything that requires business or government because there is always a holiday being observed and everything goes on hold. Actually I like that very much! Reminds me of big snow storms in Vermont when the mail and other services stop.

So while we were waiting, we did some exploring and took a trip back to visit a place nearby we really like, Sao Jorge. It’s a tiny village at the entrance to the national park. It has a dozen pousadas, a couple restaurants and a shop or two. We planned our trip so we could buy a lamp, visit a friend and eat at a pasta buffet we fell in love with last winter (which was summer in Brazil.) It was dusk by the time we were driving down the road towards home and as darkness fell we were still on the dirt road traveling through the Chapada. In the headlights we saw something quite large crossing the road and stopped to have a look at the biggest spider we’d ever seen. It stopped in the headlights and we were able to get fairly close to have a better look. It was as big as my hand and looked to be a tarantula, but the next day trying to identify it on line it looked more like a wandering spider and could possibly be one of the most deadly and poisonous. Lucky we didn’t go closer! Earlier that day we were fortunate enough to see a couple Emus as well. There’s no lack of wildlife here. Just out our bedroom window, about a hundred feet away is a Eucalyptus tree. It must be over a hundred feet tall. It seems to be a favorite resting place for about 6 different species of birds and when they come back from their day just before dusk they are incredibly social creatures and very outspoken. We wake to them in the morning too, singing exotic melodies. Often it sounds like gangs of schoolchildren playfully screaming in the yard.

While we’re on the subject of wildlife, last week we were visiting our friends in Pirenopolis. They took us to his mother’s house in the city to show us where he grew up. This street happened to be one of our favorites and we had been there frequently walking or at restaurants nearby, so we were amazed that out the back door of this town house was a jungle! We were standing under huge banana trees when a capybara ran by! This is the most amazing animal. Last year we saw several at the zoo, They are reminiscent of the creatures in the movie, The Princess Bride, called rodents of unusual size (ROUS.) Even though they are like giant rodents, they are actually quite cute. Thinking back now, being there also reminded me of another children’s story called The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe. In that story, you entered into a magical land through the back of a wardrobe, behind the clothes. How was it possible to be in the middle of the city and have jungle out the back door? I still can’t grasp this!

We returned last week to Ecletica to meet with our good friend Gaudencio who continues to help us with our permanent visas, our dealings with the federal police to extend our tourist visas and our banking difficulties with currency exchange. I can not begin to express how incredible it is to find a friend like this so willing to take such time from his life to help us. He is like our own personal Ganeesh, breaking down barriers for us. Arriving in town, we pulled up in front of the hotel restaurant to find our other friends standing out front, so happy to see us. So strange, how it felt like a homecoming. There is so much love for us there it’s enticing. As much as we like this incredible place we are living in, we do not have friends here like we left behind in Ecletica and Pirenopolis and Paul is yearning for the comfort of that friendship to help with this difficult transition.

You know, speaking of difficult transitions, moving to a different hemisphere, to a country with a different language and culture is not an easy thing for anyone, less so probably for those of us over fifty, but we have an additional complicating factor to contend with. With Saturn and Pluto heavily squaring Jupiter in Paul’s natal chart, he is having to deal with heavy cosmic forces affecting everything in his personality, tearing down everything he knew himself to be. If ever someone had to experience a rebirthing, this is a doozy. It is a fearful passage through the birth canal to a new life. Imagine being born into a place with wild jungle sounds surrounding you and no mother’s arms waiting to comfort you. I’m afraid this may be his experience here in the Chapada, so the comfort of friends eager to help is calling him back while my intrigue with this place has not yet been satisfied. While we haven’t found our place here so far, I feel like with some patience we might yet.

The dogs of the village are howling in unison. So unsettling!

Saturday morning we had an unexpected meeting with our friends at breakfast to discuss our visas before heading off to Brasilia to do some shopping on our way home to Alto Paraiso. We were off to find an import market we’d been to once before but were confounded by the fact that every person who lives in Brasilia must shop at this market on Saturday mornings. We found ourselves in a line of traffic trying to find a parking space with no way out. The one lane journey through the market waiting to park took more than an hour at which point with still no open parking space or way to retreat we opted not to stay and continue on our way. The next stop was to be meeting a friend nearby for lunch but unable to find our way to her, the cell phone ceased working and driving through the city traffic lost, we accidentally found the highway around the city putting us exactly on the road home. It was a nice intervention from the Way getting us home well before dark. We had more than enough to unload with a full car of suitcases and shopping already loaded in.

Yesterday we were eager to be back in the car exploring the valleys and other communities around us. I’d had several days of messages and a vision of a place which I thought might be this place I’d kept hearing about, Moinho. It turned out to be a road we’d been on before but hadn’t driven as far as we needed to find the village. The valley was enchanting and all the way there I kept trying to not get my hopes up so I wouldn’t be disappointed. The village wasn’t what I’d hoped for but the beauty of the valley couldn’t be beat. Coming home we were flagged down by a young woman who’d stopped us one evening in town to sell us a dream catcher. That night I hadn’t especially been in the market for a dream catcher but there was something in her voice that told me I had to help her. Her plea for a ride back to town had the same quality.

It was an interesting conversation in my limited Portuguese and her limited English and we were surprised when she asked us what religion we followed. I can’t say anyone has ever asked me that before. We talked a little about Taoism and Lao Tzu and about Sufism and she had some opinions about Spiritism and Osho which were not as favorable. She told me she lived with her father who was a veterinarian and took Rocket inside to show her father his rash when we arrived at her house. Coming back out she suggested we go by the shamans to buy Arnica to treat it.

We left her and went over to the vegetarian restaurant which by the way is fantastic. Two tables of self serve buffet with delicious food and a huge thatched outdoor pavilion to eat on. We were surprised and delighted to see one of the friends we met here last February with her husband and have them invite us to join them. The conversation confirmed some of our initial feelings about the division of the town factions and some of the difficulties it is struggling to correct. We made a wonderful connection with them and I left there really hopeful that we would find friends here and a sense of community after all.

We had one more fortuitous meeting that day, actually two. The owner of the ice cream store came to talk with us, challenging Paul’s opinion that the local Brasiliero’s were not at all friendly here to foreigners. After which we encountered a woman on the street we’d met a couple evenings before when she came looking for a house to rent from our landlady Vistara. She too, like us, has been traveling a bit, looking for her place. She, though not a foreigner, is like many others here, a Brasiliero from other parts of Brazil. I liked her immediately when we met and felt we had very much in common. We talked for a few minutes and she told us of a place outside of town we might be interested in and promised to take us there next week after she moves.

These various encounters had me feeling very encouraged that we might yet find a place for ourselves here and a community of friends. We’re not feeling right about the place we are in and though it is lovely, it has a lack of warmth and love here. And it is very noisy. We think we’d prefer something outside of town, however I’m afraid Paul is yearning to leave all together and I am concerned and reluctant to be on the road again, feeling in need of home and community.

I want to end this letter with a funny story. While I was busy transacting business with the bank in Brasilia, Paul was sitting quietly by unable to participate. Later that evening he told me a funny thing. “You know,” he said, “ Today I didn’t have to talk. First I was instructed not to say anything while Gaudencio spoke to the Federal Police and then I couldn’t say anything at the bank, because I didn’t know enough Portuguese and you had handled all the transactions so I had a lot of free time to think. So I was thinking about when a bunda becomes a bundao.”

“You were thinking about that while I was working my ass off figuring out how to get our money!” I laughed, pretending indignation. You probably need a little explanation. At our first Portuguese lesson with Marta she wanted to share a little about Brazillian culture with us as well as language. She wanted to express the point that Brasilieros are very direct and will say anything and used the following example. Bunda is the word for buttocks and the women in this country have amazing bundas. They come in the most unusual shapes and sizes, mostly large and extra large but not unattractive, actually fascinating to look at. “But when they have a really big ass,” she said, “we call it a bundao!”

“So what exactly were you thinking?” I asked Paul, “Were you imagining different size bundas?” He said, “I was just wondering where the line was between a bunda and a bundao…”

How I wish my mind would occupy itself with thoughts as amusing rather than the mundane details mine wants to concern itself with. Life is so unfair.

Well my dear friends and loved ones, I await word back from some of you. Please let me know who you are and say hello. I miss you. Until next time Paul joins me in sending love and wishing you well.

One last note, if you have time there’s a good video we’ve been trying to watch but internet isn’t often fast enough, called The Calling by Max Igan. Look for it on You Tube.